HAPPY BIRTHDAY S'PORE!
NATIONAL DAY !
NATIONAL DAY !
1 year has passed since i joined NDP.
i'm involved in the item called SINGA CITY. i totally can remember clearly what i have been through during that period of time.
the time when i feel totally lost,totally shut off away from everything i want to do. i can still remember is like chiong-ing and dying at the same time. that time was during my 2nd yr 1 semester. chiong-ing like hell and also many things not accomplished because no time management. that period was very difficult and tough. not many people around me can understand what i have been through.
they thought i was fine and alive.
after the whole NDP and the preparation of it, i further realized what i have been missing out. i realised that i have been too much into my world and neglect alot of things. people around me are much more busier than me and yet they don't have any complaints.
there i was complaining and find no significance.
the moment i watched the TV show just now, i recalled alot of memories. those happy, sad, miserable and joy etc... the bridge which i have to run across to the platform and the position i am standing.
practices where the music suddenly come to a halt.
days that i have dropped my cloth couple of times.
running wrong positions.
eating KFC
the MDs who always taking care of our bags
forget my steps etc...
days that i have dropped my cloth couple of times.
running wrong positions.
eating KFC
the MDs who always taking care of our bags
forget my steps etc...
looking at the surrounding of the place/platform, brings great memories to me.
though it is just a short period of time, i gained/learnt alot.
i miss my friends, my trainers, backstagers etc.. most importantly, i miss those STRUGGLES that i have during those period.
learnt?
the important of GAKKAI spirit!
it will always be with me whenever i am!
further more realised what i have to do.
i treasure every single thing that have been taught to me.
every training i'll go w/o fail because i want to GROW.
why '08 didn't join?
because it is in my year 3.
want to break through my inner struggles.
want to concentrate and show actual proof.
though many people around me don't understand me.
i don't give up.
Common test?
when i say i did not study, it is i did not study at ALL.
i got no mood to study and i have to force myself to do is a v tough thing.
i don't have strong motivation like some of my classmates have.
i don't.
- no choice but to find motivation every single day. it is tough doing things that you don't like for a very long time/years to be exact.
wow, such a long post today.
nevermind nobody knows i have this blog.
haha.. =)
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