Actually want to post many entries for the past few weeks, in the end my laptop damn lacked. dunno due to what, automatically slowing down. working for a couple of weeks - tired but interesting. recently i went to borrow plenty of books and bought some books a great bargain sale & they are not second hand! i just love reading.

I went to an interview this morning and i doubt that i can go in. no confidence at all!! sometimes i wonder if being rich is a good thing or a bad thing. why? i realized that my friends can get whatever they want. examples, they are able to further their studies at overseas and travel to many places without having the money issues. oh my! i want that lives too. to get whatever i want! go to any other countries i want too!! so full of jealously.

As for me, i have to crack my brain really hard as to what courses am i supposed to take and how am i going to get that gigantic amount for my studies. why am i so poor? i am not born rich!

I am a person of fickle minded, on constant change. i cannot stay the same place over and over again. i will feel very sick and tired of everything. I am a person which is more into arts. where there's no right or wrong, only improvements.

I got to redirect my goals NOW. I got to plan detailed steps of going to London to study. still thinking whether taking Fashion Design or Nutritionist course? University's expenses - BIG HEADACHE!

WHY CAN'T MONEY FALL FROM GROUND OR DUG FROM EARTH?

The future looks hopeful till now.

HOPE

I loved the gathering at last Sunday. It was great! it's important to learn from each other. i remembered that i have role models in my childhood. It triggered my life & i finally find my ways. as it my missing pieces have been found. at least i found out what is missing these few days. i am working towards it unknowingly until Sunday. my childhood role model imprinted an important message inside me. gathering back with them since impossible because they are located out of Singapore. nevertheless she came back for gathering. it was impressive. LOL. those were the days where i wish i can be her.

my dreams for London has returned, directions found and everything seemed to be placing right. haha =))

all thanks to the gatherings & my mentor, Mr Daisaku Ikeda (President of Soka Gakkai) for all those encouragements he gave.

I am what i am today is because of Ikeda sensei constant guidance and my strict training in Kotekitai. all of us have grown and spreaded our wings out. Most importantly, we have the same goal for Kosen-Rufu.

i'm getting fair soon. i've not been under the sun for quite some times already.
now half a year has gone by. so fast! so so fast!! it's July now. i keep asking myself wad have i done this year? what have i've been doing?

... ate supper at mcdonald just now. feeling kinda sinful right now. haha =x oops.
i joined moving arts this afternoon and this grp is not big. i am one of the 2 new comers. so this hip hop group is so small small, like 9 people + me la.

msned & facebook very seldom now. lols dunno wad to do in facebook also. the thing i like to do most is taking their facebook quiz. wauahaha! anyhow do the quiz and u can get the answer CORRECT!

going to taiwan this november. Just me and my mum. i hope my friends can join me too.
recent interest is my reading. my catching up with the world and getting out of my shadow.

going to watch Kindaichi NOW. also can learn japanese lols. my childhood idol is back in my mind again. haha =))

byes will catch up with u soon.

hey hey ~

i am looking for a job now that can allow me to go to Taiwan ( out of money problem ). this means i can spend a lot of money w/o thinking twice. haha =))

i like shopping overseas, it kinda fun & interesting. i msn for a while first. these few days, i don't feel like picking up my house phone. so i asked my mum to pick up, so lazy to go and pick up. =)) maybe because my house phone ringing is damn damn noisy.

for now, i need to do more research on Taiwan and their airplane tickets fees.

byes.

my mood now is empty.

loves loves.