she's coping well.

she's doing well.

she don't feel much unhappiness anymore.

she's taking it slowly and steady.

she's waiting for the day to come when she don't feel anymore sadness.

even it's not her, she will still remains happy!


goodbyes & goodly luck!

Gang just leave me out.

am i such a horrible person?

am i supposed to feel sad? or anything?

yes, i did feel very unsecured.

i thought there's something wrong with me.

Something trigger to made them hated me.

I know i won't see them again.

I will not go anymore.

Even if we were to meet up again.

It will be end year or not meeting anymore.

it won't make a difference if i attend or not?

I'm non-existence.

there are times when you will feel like, you have to change so you can fit in. times when you are not listening to your heart and goes against it. you know it's wrong and eventually feel remorse. you could badly sleep at night because it haunts you. by what? it's by your behaviors, actions and your thoughts. it's really not you, people around you might not have notice it. you're in the midst of lost. you thought you are doing the right thing, acting as it's right. all you're doing is pretend and that's haunt you down isn't it so?

you realized the reasons behind of all the insecurities and acting in this "you". but never fail to know what went wrong, you also look for answers. you never failed to have yourself challenge and change.

you found out that you don't have to fit in. you're just yourself, both flawless and rebel. you are deem to perfect. you made mistakes and rectify. you are the girl whom people know it's you. people just look different at you and think you're weird. you don't have to try to fit in because you know you don't belong there. go out and meet new friends! keep moving forward. this is just you!

trust yourself more and love yourself even more. always follow your heart if you will not regret!
you jolly well know that there are people out there who will hate and hurt you. don't be upset about these trivial affairs. please don't let your heart cried to death. stay strong and fill with hopes. isn't this what keep you going? to lead you to where you are right now.