i just came back from Cambodia over run by 2 days due to unforeseen chicken pox. I had chicken pox for last 1 weeks. Supposedly to have a 15 days trip, ending up staying 9/17 days facing 4 walls. I didn't manage to go other places.
Even i did not manage to go to other places, I learn a lot during my quarantine days. I went into serious thinking and self realization that I don't know I have missed. I don't actually feel sad that I cannot go out with my YEP friends. I just got that feelings somehow. I'm starting to feel back myself.
This is one trip that I will never forget! It made me realized things that I've long forgotten/missed. I feel very fortunate to be living in Singapore. Have wonderful friends & family. I have dreams and aspirations. I seem to have everything then I should no longer complain.
Sometimes my insecurities will overwhelm me. It made me very fearful and lonely. I guess this is the aftermath of childhood horrible failure. I don't tell around to people that I'm having these feelings. It sounds so stupid & irk! Is this normal? I should not be doing things that are making me feeling very insecure. This is one of the lessons I have learnt.
I cannot really express my feelings. There are too much I want to share. But some thing are left better unsaid. I just hope you will understand.
** I will never forget this trip ever **
** Both happy & emotional memories **
** Both happy & emotional memories **